I don't know what to do

I don't really know what to say these days. Life has lost it's luster for me the past few months. There's not much to look forward to and the answers to the questions I have do not provide me with any comfort... The people around me now seem so out of touch with what really matters in the world. It's all about money, possessions and social status for them. Somehow that brings them purpose and they are the very reason that we are the most unsustainable of species on the planet.

Christmas is here. That means obligatory gifts and spending despite my whole hearted hate for the entire holiday now. My true friends don't need gifts from me to know that I charish them. The rest expect time, energy, money and all with a smile.

I wish at this moment that I could run away from this world. Run away to a place where peace, love and humility were the worshiped in place of the all mighty dollar. Where there was something more important to share with each other than sports highlights or chit chat about our current level of success (money, fancy cars, big housesand fake personalities that everyone wears like a set of fake tits in order to impress each other). I want simplicity and truth and transparency in life.

I can't say anything more specific about the way I feel right now. It's just a deep depression and hopeless feeling about everyone. This is the world of greed & glutttony and I am feeling very alone again.